I truly have been busy with school, more so than last semester, but not enough that I can justify slacking on my posts. I just haven't been in the mood to make them. I've also been slacking on Astrological chart interpretations that were due for my friends last semester! It's not that I'm waning in my Astrological interests, I just haven't been in the mood to fulfill my blogging obligations that they require.
I guess it would be valid to say that I'm bored (busy, but bored - not even bored with my school work, just bored in general). You'd think that my boredom would cause me to want to be on top of my Astrological obligations? I don't mean to say that nothing "exciting" has been happening, that nothing "new" has been happening, because that wouldn't be true. I'm just bored.
Upon evaluating myself, which I haven't done very thoroughly, I have found that I'm bored because I have nothing to "dream" about. There are specific things that I hope to happen, like getting a particular job this summer; but these immediate, specific things, I don't like to "dream" about too much because then I get my hopes up; if they don't happen, I get too crushed. But that's normal for me, as in, I've always thought that way; that shouldn't specifically be making me bored. By having nothing to "dream" about, I mean I have nothing to daydream about. I'm a straight woman at a women's college. While there are lots of guys around and on campus on a daily basis, I don't see particular guys as often as I would have in high school. I'm not a very bold person, so it's difficult to form relationships with people you see for a few hours a week in a classroom (meaning not social) setting or just in passing.
Perhaps this seems pathetic, or ridiculous, to be bored because I don't have guys to daydream about, but it's true. Since I started school as a child, I've always managed to have a crush on some guy at almost all times; but, in school, you are constantly with these people and have grounded relationships with these people, so you have the opportunity to form real intrigues. Yes, I can form a crush based off of appearances that I've only briefly seen; however, one that I would daydream about would have to be one that also comes from knowing a person. Therefore, I am bored and don't know how to comfortably solve this problem.
